White Spectral Wizard/ Solar Jaguar Moon of Intention, Day 22

10 Ix

White Spectral Wizard

It isn’t that we quarreled –

Or fought with sharpened Tongue and Fang

Or clawed our Way through Tunnels full of Gloom

Together

No fuming Rage or Thunder

Tore apart our Hearts -

Eros stood silently at Bay

Peeking in on us – standing on Tip -Toe

Watching as we mocked Love’s Glory –

Imitating the sublime State

We moved simultaneously toward

And against each other

The Possibility of US did not

Dawn in Flashes of bright Light –

You spoke of Rockets, saying

“I need others as well as you –

Another instead of you.”

There are Burdens you carry

Awkwardly against your Will

You turn away

Even while approaching –

You balance self-consciously

In order not to fall or disturb

A precarious Equilibrium 

Being January’s Child

I know the two-faced god

Of Ambivalence –

Janus is false fashioned

As you are rudely fake

You give and then abruptly take

Away –

I had little Time

To test the Truth 

To run the Gamut of Emotions

Bequeathed to me

As crown Jewels –

I chose a simple Stone

Of Disenchantment –

I now deny false gods –

Declare that I repair

The bruised Heart within me beating –

The Decision is mine

To make without you

Even as I have been

With you

Awareness breaks with

Waves of Consciousness –

The rhythmic Swell of Knowledge

Builds the natural Bridges of my Soul –

Only forward does my inner Eye direct

As I acquaint myself with myself again –

Without you.

©Kleomichele Leeds