11/2/2020 White Planetary Mirror/ Self-Existing Owl Moon of Form, Day 16

 

10 Etznab

 

White Planetary Mirror

 

Murdered was my Soul –

Surgically –

Methodically –

Intentionally 

 

In infancy

Ignored –

Untouched – neglected

 

Or given deadly

Double Meanings –

 

By age five

I was wise

Well beyond my Years

 

Thoroughly repressed –

Utterly depressed –

Totally suppressed

 

It got much worse –

Needle Tracks –

Attacks of Rage and Fear –

 

Insults – Incest – Abandoned –

Not – so – veiled References

To my horrendous Imperfections –

 

There was no pleasing

No appeasing

Nor approval

In their Eyes

 

I fail

In all Ways –

 

Is it my Death-wish?

Or just my Death

They wish?

©Kleomichele Leeds